[He considers those words carefully. He's not sure if... Cas is trying to convince him that he doesn't hate him on Dean's behalf (his brother can be really bossy; he knows how it is), or if it's all genuine. Sam couldn't even imagine that the ex-angel would like him. Not after he apparently made things worse. But... the words do help. A little.
He's still lost and scared, and unsure what to do. He's still feeling a whole lot of things, some of that probably not so healthy. But... he's relieved to at least know Cas is potentially genuine in what he's saying. It matters.]
You just wanted to try to make it better. You had real good intentions. I know that.
I just wish I would have known angels were crappy forever ago I prayed every night. I mean if angels even actually hear prayers I guess.
[Terribly sad prayers since he was young. Please let my dad come home, please protect my brother, watch over them, please ask God to fix whatever's wrong with me, please help us be safe, please tell God I don't blame him for mom, please help me find a better life. He had been staunch in his nightly routine.
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He's still lost and scared, and unsure what to do. He's still feeling a whole lot of things, some of that probably not so healthy. But... he's relieved to at least know Cas is potentially genuine in what he's saying. It matters.]
You just wanted to try to make it better.
You had real good intentions. I know that.
I just wish I would have known angels were crappy forever ago
I prayed every night.
I mean
if angels even actually hear prayers I guess.
[Terribly sad prayers since he was young. Please let my dad come home, please protect my brother, watch over them, please ask God to fix whatever's wrong with me, please help us be safe, please tell God I don't blame him for mom, please help me find a better life. He had been staunch in his nightly routine.
Had it all been pointless?]